Over the last couple of months Merlin and I have had a great deal of growth and success as a team at trials. The game has been turning on for him. We still have some training opportunities to address, but he has a genuine excitement to be at trials now which is a far cry from where he was last year. I don’t find myself getting quite so exhausted ramping him up before and during our runs. No longer am I having to wait until the very last moment to signal collection in order to keep him driving towards the obstacle before we turn. My last second cues are now starting to send him out wide and I couldn’t be happier with his performances. We’ve worked very hard to keep it fun and exciting and that work it starting to show.We had some absolutely phenomenal runs at our last USDAA trial, including a 1st place in Biathlon with quite possibly our best technical run ever. I was able to give him the information he needed sooner, and we weren’t experiencing a drop off in speed. We’ve typically done quite well with technical on its own or with wide open on its own, but when the two are combined we start to flatten out in the speed department. However, we were both running happy and the results showed it. We Q’d 6 of our 9 runs, all with first place finishes as well as wrapping up all of the needed qualifications for Cynosports.
The success of the weekend was an exclamation point for me mentally. Decisions that I made with our training were proving to be correct, even though they were scary as hell at the time. Voices in my head were being silenced. For whatever the reason, over our relatively short time learning and competing in agility the words “he can’t…” and “he wont be able to…” have been whispered behind my back on a few occasions (funny haha… it’s really interesting what audio can be picked up at trials when runs are being recorded). I have no idea why these opinions were shared, and to be completely honest there are times where I feel like an outsider in the sport. I didn’t come from a horse background. I didn’t have a BC from a big name breeder. I like running & sprinting my ass off on the course. Finally I’m a guy in a female dominated world. Perhaps it’s their own insecurities being spoken, but to an introvert it can be mentally crippling. When I started this adventure with Merlin I had zero training in agility. I had a dog, a dream and an open mind. In the end it really doesn’t matter what is said… now all it does is help to motivate me. These last couple of months have shown that we can and we will, and it has felt great.
The overwhelming sense of joy I had quickly came back down to Earth on the following Monday. When I had got home from work I could tell something wasn’t quite right with Merlin. It was just some subtle things that most folks wouldn’t pick up on, but when you have a sensitive dog you tend to be aware of everything they do that isn’t “normal”. This is where it’s extremely nice to be working with Dr. Woodside. I brought him into work and he got a nice little checkup. He appeared to be his normal self, with the exception that he was dragging his rear toes while walking and jogging. Decided to give Merlin some rest from agility and take him to our regular vet for x-rays to see what’s going on with his back, hips and knees. Hopefully the X-rays wouldn’t show anything and I’d now know what I had structurally.The X-ray appointment was scheduled for 30 minutes and I figured we’d be in and out pretty quickly since it should have only really needed the tech and assistants. Our regular Doctor, who has been nothing short of amazing for our animals, was not in the office that day and this trip reaffirmed my belief in going to specialists when it comes to the athlete and injuries. The standard couch potato house dog and the canine athlete are different animals and it seems a number of vets are not used to seeing fit dogs these days. Unfortunately there’s no such thing as a drive through service for x-ray referrals, and I’m pretty sure there were less hoops to jump through for any of my five MRIs. Instead we got the full clinical treatment with multiple diagnosis being tossed out at us to see what would stick. Ninety minutes later and I was finally out the door. My brain was fried and quite frankly I was pissed at the laundry list of problems that were given as possible reasons for his discomfort. I of all people know the struggle it can be to diagnose an injury in humans, let alone in the pups. I was appreciative of Doctor’s help in trying to figure out what was going on, but I don’t think I could have made it any more clear that I just wanted the x-rays shot. Life would be much easier if the animals could just hold up a sign.
Once Dr. Woodside was able to view the x-rays I had some answers as to what has been ailing Merlin…
Partially Torn Cranial Cruciate Ligaments. Yup… he managed tear both knees… at the same time. My little over achiever.
The next few minutes are a complete blank. We had just gotten done dealing with a multi-day Emergency Vet trip for one of our cats, and now this. I then started asking all sorts of questions I already knew the answers to. “So no agility?” “For how long?” “Can we go to Cynosports?” “What about swimming… it’s summer and he loves swimming…” At this point the devastation of reality set in. While this was not the news I wanted to hear, part of me knew that this could happen. We had been through a full tear of one CCL with our Ridgeback and looking back at that learning experience Merlin was starting to show similar symptoms.
A few friends have asked me how did this happen and there really isn’t an easy answer. First off, I have no idea when the injuries happened. Considering how well he has been running, it either happened recently or he did an extremely good job of hiding his pain. He has lost three pounds (12% of his body weight) since his last checkup 4 months ago. He could have been compensating for some time and masked it very well. Single ruptures of the CCL are not all that uncommon. Tearing both at the same time is all sorts of special. Merlin didn’t exactly win the genetics lottery when it comes to his structure and that has most likely factored into the injury. He was also neutered at eight months, which I think played a larger role in this. Looking back at it I wish we would have had a vasectomy done instead of the castration.
While you never want to deal with an injury of any sorts, I am thankful for the positives that are in play. First and foremost, we caught it early and its not life threatening. The tears are hopefully minor enough that we can avoid surgery with proper rehabilitation and rest (which could be considered a BC’s death sentence) and eventually return to a normal life. Secondly, I can’t imagine trying to go through this with my previous work/employer. There are definitely some perks to working with a rehab vet when your pup is in need. We’ll get to experiment with a few new toys and see how it goes. I see weighted vest walks for both of us in the near future and as crazy as it sounds, I actually enjoy doing strength and stability exercises with the pups. Third, he is young. Merlin turns 4 on Saturday and the healing process should be much easier now than say at 9 or 10 years of age – Happy Birthday Buddy…
As this has all settled into my brain, I’ve spent time re-evaluating our goals. For now the dreams of his ADCH title he’s ever so close to (1 Standard & 1 Gamble), going to Cynosports and participating in World Team Tryouts are shelved. They have been replaced with getting him stronger and avoiding surgery. It is my hope that we’ll be able to return to playing the game we both enjoy, but I’m also aware that there is a chance that his body just wont allow for it. We won’t spend time worrying about things that are out of our control. Right now we are focused on his 8 weeks of crate rest, walks and stability exercises. We’ll re-evaluate and go from there. The hope is to start bringing him back into agility slowly after the 8 weeks. Mentally to get through this I need to believe that we will return. Thank you to everyone who has offered their support and kind words. We shall rebuild him bigger, faster and stronger.
“When something bad happens you have three choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you.”